Have your life ever reversed back to what was totally opposite from what it used to be five years back? Five years back..do I even remember it when my life was a normal Maldivian life..no hassle..no fuss..no obsession with work. When all I ever required to do was fix computers and then I entered the world of tourism.
I remembered the time when I ran away from crowds and now I am the centre of attention..the person who would go out with this stranger and fascinate them with my stories from Maldivian way of living. The person who could not even start a conversation is now making the art of conversation her own life
I feel trapped in this new transformation which is killing my relationship..which is swallowing my every possible hope of having a normal living.
And today as I told this Japanese girls about what my life had become ..a life of creating this illusion infront of everyone I realized maybe after five years from now it would have taken a different road..so I thought of capturing every day of my life in this blog..me in distress! Yeah me in distress with my pathetic life of trying to make a huge drama out of my everyday life..The dying feeling of so called emotions..the endless path that I have taken which does not have space for my own people…and here I am alone in this room writing away when I could have been lying next to my husband or enjoying a night out with my friends…
Life can turn into a drama just like a blink…and here I am the shy girl who was hidden behind her glasses entertaining people I rarely know! The girl who hated the smell of cigerrette smoking away like it’s just a normal thing! How far I have become and how far is the point where I collapse remain unknown..I feel like this floating balloon that can burst any moment..but when it burst will I drop face down or will there be anyone to catch me at all!! And me the floating balloon float away further away!!!
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